you made me feel better for now. it still hurts. but for now, im okay. thank you

"We're miles and miles apart, but I'll save a big hug for you when you come home." "When can I claim it?" "Anytime, anywhere. I'm yours."

-kilroy

Do you know that I brought your jersey with back with me. You told me to take good care of it, I am. Its safe with me. The only shirt that I brought with me back. This feeling hurts.

I wish for you to be with me on that day.

tu me manques beaucoup, je t'aime

random

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satu hari nanti kamu sedar
cukup cuma aku
yang tulus terima compang camping kamu

21/12

Do I want to make a bunch of people worry the hell about me just because one person doesn't?

Lying down on this empty space
Every single thought makes my heart race
The wind suddenly stays on a halt
Everything seems to freeze showing me faults
What did I do to be in this parade
Giving me heartaches and showering me with hates
God please help me in this change of heart
As I seek forgiveness from you for everything from the start

astaghfirullahhala'zim, to the-Almighty I seek for forgiveness.

'tu me manques beaucoup'

Had a talk with hanan and i think what she said is true. I want to stop being miserable, and do my things for me. Not for anyone else. Oh and learn to get myself back on track. I will wait for you, I know I will. Just that for now, I'll just go with the flow. Im here whatever it is.

all i want for Christmas is you vb. just you. somehow i just wish that youre reading all this somehow but i know youre not. im not opening my heart to anyone else, its still yours no matter what. je t'aime

UNTITLED

again, when you miss someone too much. depressed. full stop

23rd

I've booked my flight ticket on the 23rd. If I can its you that I wanna meet as soon as Im back in kl. Well thats just me, I dont even know whether you want to meet me or not. I wish you well. Goodnight handsome. Kisses on your forehead.

MORNING

Good morning handsome. Thank you for your text. Even just a tad short, it meant the world to me knowing that you have arrived safely. Please take care. Je t'aime

Ya Allah, I'm not strong. Please take good care of him. I just wish I can ask him how is he today. Do you know that I'm breaking here? Je t'aime

YOU

My fever keeps coming back. Do you know that I'm lacking in m y studies, that I cant focus at all anymore. Where are you at times like this? I really miss you. For the thousandth times I'm saying that I miss you. What more can I say. I miss those kisses on my forehead, I miss my 'morning sweetheart', I miss hearing your voice everyday, I miss you. Just you. Everything about you. This feels like shit.

PRAY

I can only pray that you'll know what you need in life again. and in between that prayer, I will take just a little space, hoping that it is me that you will need once again amongst others. I am here hurting. Just please. Come back. I'm hurt. I wish you well handsome.

SIGH

I miss him. Cant he tell. I miss him. Hurt.

RANDOM

Talking to the moon. What if the moon is the only thing we have in common now? Are you crying or are you having fun without me? Those words linger in my head like melody on staccato. Short but seems like never ending. What if the moon is the only thing we share now? Are you laying on the grass reminiscing us or are you fast asleep thinking about nothing? Silence is the loudest cry for a lady, you can surely know she's deeply hurt when she starts ignoring you. Flabbergasted? Well. I think that woman is me. Just the way you are? Do you still love me the way that word flowed from your mouth once? I can wait even waiting seems like the hardest thing to do. Do you know how I wish you were here? I woke up feeling dead, like a grenade exploded out of nowhere. How I wish I can be next to you, the tingles that I felt every time you're around make me feel right at this moment, it is all just a dream. I can only thank The Almighty when that memory came on a halt, straight to my face saying "You found me", from the lips of an angel. I will always wait for you. I promised.

DAMN

I may be good in getting myself busy but I'm bad in getting myself busy without thinking of you. Damn.