tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8347489762960516442024-03-04T20:22:35.506-08:00flabbergasted!people say that we only live once, so live everyday as it is our last. most important find someone who will give us love or maybe we can give love without expecting in return because people say the feelings of loving someone and to be loved is indescribable. although sometimes it hurts like hell.flabbergasted? :)fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.comBlogger60125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-48872316377022732532012-05-01T12:02:00.001-07:002012-05-01T12:02:16.724-07:00In the process of mending an organ called heartfatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-50718429479919722722012-03-20T02:37:00.002-07:002012-03-20T02:52:49.712-07:0020/3/2012Waking up with an arch upon my lips,<br />Though the pain you left still lingers in me,<br />Telling myself that memories can be reap,<br />Well my path in life is still far to be explored abstemiously.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Reasons to be broken sometimes align with the reasons He gave to lift ourselves back up. Just believe. </span>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-34029761596924423282012-03-04T21:49:00.001-08:002012-03-04T21:50:48.696-08:00What do I do when all I feel is numb. Dont shut me out this weekend. Pleasefatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-85880480114487803652012-03-03T00:33:00.001-08:002012-03-03T00:33:35.004-08:00<span> She'll never tell him, but he is her little scar.</span>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-16718236719815659262012-03-02T20:40:00.000-08:002012-03-02T20:40:58.102-08:00Guys can be so sweet but so cruel too!<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Rd26SB7utoU?fs=1" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" width="480"></iframe><br /><br />if only I knew what we are now. I sure know it is not goodbye. but what if?fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-89226553015017599702012-03-01T19:09:00.001-08:002012-03-01T19:09:47.511-08:00damnyou were back. but now you're gone againfatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-50040291106472837862012-02-27T02:12:00.001-08:002012-02-27T02:16:10.112-08:00fynn jamal - suatu pernahhabis sudah madah;<br />tak ada satu pun yang tertinggal,<br />setiapnya telah—<br />kau ambil dan terus kau jual.<br /><br />seolah tak pernah memakna apa,<br />seolah tak pernah kau inginkannya,<br />seolah—<br />tak pernah...<br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span>dikutipku bila sudi,<br />di bila tidak, dibiar mati,<br />dan lebih menyakitkan—<br />ku tetap tunggu di tepi jalan.<br /><br />seperti tak pernah ku ada harga,<br />seperti tak pernah kita bersama,<br />seperti tak pernah kau mahu aku,<br />--tak pernah rindu<br />--tak pernah rayu<br />--dulu.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span>terleburhancur kebal rusukku;<br />berkecaisepai, terpecahbelah,<br />terima kasih atas ajarmu—<br />--cinta tak wujud<br />--ah, tak pernah.<br /><br />dan dengarkan jeritku;<br />jujur tak terfitnah,<br />kau hanya bagiku—<br />suatu yang pernah.<br /><br />takkan ada apa—<br />yang mampu untuk buat kau pulang,<br />bila sudah tiada rasa—<br />bikinlah apa, tetap kau terbang.<br /><br />takkanku pujuk kau jangan pergi,<br />takkan ku minta kau fikir lagi,<br />takkan ku paksa renung semula,<br />takkan ku suruh apa2.<br /><br />takkan ku izin tubuh dibuka,<br />takkan ku pamer reput di dada,<br />takkan ku rebah,<br />takkan ku goyah,<br />takkan ku biar tubuh didarah.<br /><iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/diPy_gWS5rY?fs=1" allowfullscreen="" width="480" frameborder="0" height="270"></iframe>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-84957001575093285242012-02-24T07:03:00.000-08:002012-02-24T07:07:58.767-08:00hairrrrrrr -.-<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1j__ECY6_bSd2wi7Xt3jT2FqBd7NuBsdEZEmYeas9BSG6a5KSeuQA09VYmWyFS2FeBt4PgT4cklb-2EnwhptlIRtP7ZK5ecAxUbuisyBXXl5hGj_WwfSS-L-dpoBPXKCcl2X37BerhLXu/s1600/010520113554.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1j__ECY6_bSd2wi7Xt3jT2FqBd7NuBsdEZEmYeas9BSG6a5KSeuQA09VYmWyFS2FeBt4PgT4cklb-2EnwhptlIRtP7ZK5ecAxUbuisyBXXl5hGj_WwfSS-L-dpoBPXKCcl2X37BerhLXu/s320/010520113554.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5712718901242475970" border="0" /></a><br />I want my long hair back. . . . . . . . . .fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-47406413926107728482012-02-21T06:04:00.001-08:002012-02-21T06:07:13.555-08:00Random<p class="js-tweet-text">All we have left is broken promises and broken hearts. If I had known this was the end, I'm not sure I would have wanted to start.</p><p class="js-tweet-text">Your words are nothing but lies. Each one of you.<br /></p>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-24270740676563428362012-02-12T07:48:00.002-08:002012-02-12T07:50:06.026-08:00please let me be strong ya Allah. Only You know how I feel right now. It has been 3 months but it still hurts every time I think of him.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-71774556374142207762012-02-05T20:53:00.000-08:002012-02-05T20:57:39.421-08:00He doesn't have a single idea how much I'm missing him right now. Its okay, slowly Fatin, slowly. .<br /><br />Studies are much tougher lately, need to increase my momentum in everything. and I miss KL badly!<br /><br /><br /> :(<br /> <span style="font-size:78%;">p/s: i just wanna go home</span>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-86874682717079626662012-02-05T11:31:00.000-08:002012-02-05T11:32:19.526-08:00blue paradise<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilRki1sKTg7BGOrK49tII3td1d3uiRxj6mEszD6U1Fx6br5hDZcScp9P7JIXER7-Do9cHhkiVYgNXimCTcUkAx7GyveVrHf6ponq72uB2h5KMbgYRiB6kMOWg-xCfWtTtNxMs5LKqwv3d0/s1600/400289_337848552913880_100000662137677_1029538_695910149_n.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 154px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilRki1sKTg7BGOrK49tII3td1d3uiRxj6mEszD6U1Fx6br5hDZcScp9P7JIXER7-Do9cHhkiVYgNXimCTcUkAx7GyveVrHf6ponq72uB2h5KMbgYRiB6kMOWg-xCfWtTtNxMs5LKqwv3d0/s320/400289_337848552913880_100000662137677_1029538_695910149_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5705736489890646802" border="0" /></a><br /><br />i performed and yeah it was something to be remembered :)fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-12208898852711331122012-02-05T11:29:00.000-08:002012-02-05T11:31:08.113-08:00just cause<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjT7pHvHNgz3oCtB-l6658MmH61vrd93QXuPGmYjKUqKKy42_yhs3LzDcJzN_G10aTwV-GHZwIo_3lXDBiIp8MM1N8uoANO6mLzVM5QB2jT0xBfuugYo21g2dCrvFPxx-hLAEPyaL5hUwAG/s1600/308317_305102106181815_210424388982921_1136877_279138364_n.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 306px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjT7pHvHNgz3oCtB-l6658MmH61vrd93QXuPGmYjKUqKKy42_yhs3LzDcJzN_G10aTwV-GHZwIo_3lXDBiIp8MM1N8uoANO6mLzVM5QB2jT0xBfuugYo21g2dCrvFPxx-hLAEPyaL5hUwAG/s320/308317_305102106181815_210424388982921_1136877_279138364_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5705736206054620082" border="0" /></a>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-80537440489586178192012-01-31T20:39:00.000-08:002012-01-31T20:43:59.004-08:00If life separates us, and we end up totally in different parts of the world, I'd remember this path when we are aligned together, and be thankful for it. And I hope, wherever you are at that time, you would be thankful too. I have loved you with all my heart. Its just that God has better plans for us maybe, who knows, one day. Miracle could happen if you have loved sincerely and dearly.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-42542969379542408082012-01-31T12:55:00.000-08:002012-01-31T12:59:39.155-08:00Yes I do think of you. A lot. But its okay. My love is there, but I'm getting better coping up with myself. What you said before maybe it is true. Don't worry. You are always in my prayers. Even if you don't do the same. I remembered what Hana and I talked about the other day at Maya, 'they don't know how it feels like. Its okay, when they do, they will understand why we are still holding on'. :)fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-51738466932853133242012-01-21T02:45:00.000-08:002012-01-21T03:04:30.303-08:00ReadJust bought these books:<br /><br />1) Without Mercy by Lisa Jackson<br />2)Edge by Jeffery Deaver<br />3)The Manuscript by Michael Stephen Fuchs<br />4)The Almond Blossom by Chris Stewart<br />5)Spiral by Joseph Geary<br />6)Suspects by David Thomson<br />7)Dirty Sally by Michael Simon<br />8)Looking Good Dead by Peter James<br />9)The Smile Of The Lamb by David Grossman<br />10)Murphy's Law by Bateman<br />11)Dead Men's Dust by Matt Hilton<br />12)Coma by Alex Garland<br />13)The Postcard Killers by James Patterson & Liza Marklund<br /><br />cant stop smiling now with all these books in hand :)fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-38447909372034062142012-01-17T10:18:00.000-08:002012-01-17T10:25:29.183-08:00sonrisaI sang my heart out just now. Sir gave me the honour to perform as a solo lead vocal for an upcoming performance here in college. Battle of The Band 2012. Hoping for the best :) oh yeah, I'll be singing Killing Me Softly which is one of my favourite song so I'm overjoyed by it.<br /><br />Alhamdulillah, I feel better today.<br /><br />When one door closes, another 10 opens. Only He knows how grateful I am for His blessings.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-31080939482509557752012-01-16T03:02:00.000-08:002012-01-16T03:12:31.750-08:00TryingI can never truly understand how in the world can I be in so much pain because of you. A wakeup call from my dad made me realize something really big from another perspective. I am trying my very best to make it all work for me.<br /><br />If it is meant to be, it is meant to be.<br /><br />InsyaAllah I'll find that happiness one day. It does hurt now, only He knows how much it hurts.<br /><br />Ya Allah, please guide me. Give me the strength to endure all this pain. Flabbergasted how people seem to write prayers instead of holding both hands up praying to him, no? Well, lets just say its another way of expressing and writing leads to many unspoken words and feelings for oneself. He is The Greatest and He knows everything that we don't. He listens, even how long we may have forgotten His presence.<br /><br />I am still learning. Allahuakhbar.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-54461590398912865562012-01-12T10:00:00.000-08:002012-01-12T10:01:17.100-08:00I haven't stop hoping. My feeling screams your name. Stay will you please handsome? :(fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-6774290926985162352012-01-12T06:12:00.001-08:002012-01-12T06:13:38.856-08:00Why must everything be my fault. I didn't ask to be sick. Im trying my best here, alone. Can someone please understand that I am not strong anymore. Just please.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-58107756001806704142012-01-12T02:17:00.000-08:002012-01-12T02:27:21.399-08:00ReflectionIn this moment of darkness<br />Through another eyes I seek for happiness<br />Waiting for an uncertainty<br />Its forgiveness and strength I need, not empathy<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">fatin rosman</span>: when the whole world </span><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);">seems to not understand, just believe in Him</span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);">, </span><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);">In</span></span><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);"></span><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);">syaAllah He's</span></span><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);font-size:78%;" ></span><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);"> there to help, He's</span> <span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">there listening to every </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);">bits of your sadness and w</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51);">itness to every tears you shed</span></span>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-82888965527069116182012-01-11T08:09:00.000-08:002012-01-11T08:11:18.778-08:0011/11 year 10 months. Please make me strong ya allah. Guide me.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-43588965448866367232012-01-09T03:31:00.000-08:002012-01-09T03:32:20.002-08:00so, yeah<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:snaptogridincell/> <w:wraptextwithpunct/> <w:useasianbreakrules/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> </w:Compatibility> <w:browserlevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:latentstyles deflockedstate="false" latentstylecount="156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language:#0400; mso-fareast-language:#0400; mso-bidi-language:#0400;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNormal">so i've pasted my heart in your palm<br />though you've said you can't hold it long<br />but i've got none to help me calm<br />like you'd right every bits of wrong.<br /><br />so i've lived a million death threats<br />though you could never care ever less<br />but i've drank all of my bloody sweats<br />like you would ever try to kindly caress.<br /><br />so it was so yesterday for you, love<br />though it is still burning yet today<br />but it was so obvious, heavenly dove<br />cause you hardly wish me in your pray.<br /><br />those stings and deadly gifts are rare<br />but hey,<br />like you ever care.</p>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-1797724972746937322012-01-09T03:25:00.000-08:002012-01-09T03:30:20.289-08:00Cinta Disampahkanjantung, diam.<br />akal, diam.<span style="" lang="EN-GB"><br />urat, diam.</span> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mencari nafas di dalam hati<br />mencari nyawa di dalam diri<br />mendiri cinta pada yang tak sudi<br />mencari harga diri<br /></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">aku gadis yang disampah-sampahkan<br />aku gadis yang dihilangkan<br />aku pecinta yang ingin disayang<br />aku ini bukan milik orang</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mencari diri di dalam kamu<br />mencari maruah diri di dalam cinta kamu<br />mencari nafas yang telah di matikan<br />mencari langit yang telah pernah engkau kuningkan</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mencari aku<br />mencari engkau<br />mencari indah<br />mencari dia yang kau cinta</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mengapa cinta ini kau tolak ke tepi?<br />mau tolakkan kepala ini<br />mencari rasa<br />mencari dia<br />mencari harga diri yang kau lelongkan ke tepi ke dalam api<br />ke dalam api<br />ke dalam api<br />ke dalam api</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">aku ini perempuan yang telah pun kau lelong-lelongkan pada langit itu<br />aku perempuan itu: perempuan yang bodoh itu<br />mengapa aku di biar di sini?<br />mengapa aku dibiar kau pergi?<br />mengapa aku di sini, kamu di situ berbahagia selalu?</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mencari diri, mencari diri<br />mencari aku, mencari kamu<br />mencari dia, mencari semua<br />mencari segala, mencari semua</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mengapa cinta?<br />mengapa sayang?<br />mengapa rasa ini kau buangkan sekarang?</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">jiwa, diam.<br />mata, pejam.<br />hidung, diam.<br />mulut, diam.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">segala diam<br />dunia memejam memandang aku:</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">“hey, bodoh kamu!<br />pergilah engkau!<br />dia bukan milikmu!<br />pergilah engkau!<br />dia bukan milikmu lagi<br />cinta kamu dimamah api”</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mengapa aku disini: aku menunggu kamu, si orang itu?<br />mengapa aku di sini mengharapkan cinta yang sudah pergi?<br />yang sudah pergi!</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">mengapa aku mengharap lagi?<br />mengapa aku masih di sini?<br />mengharapkan sementara cinta<br />mengharapkan pada yang tiada</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="" lang="EN-GB">tiada<br />tiada<br />tiada</span></p> <span style="" lang="EN-GB"><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">When you still</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">can't find</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);"> a reason</span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);">to leave your memories <span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);">behind.</span></span><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);">When you are to</span><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">o strong</span></span><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);"><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">to let</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);">go, too weak</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);">to</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51);"> leave them. -FJ</span><br /></span></span></span></span>fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-834748976296051644.post-10712555698219002932012-01-07T02:36:00.000-08:002012-01-07T02:39:50.279-08:00I am sick. I didnt lie to you. Its just that, I wanted you to show me that you still care about me, then I'll be around. The truth is, I am always around. I just need you to show me that I am needed, then only will I reveal myself. You have no idea how everything hurts. I miss you.fatinrosmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06060676222489160511noreply@blogger.com0