Monday, October 11, 2010

IT STAYS

The wind hums the melody of surreal
In the amidst of reality and denial I stand
For it was hard to explain what is there inside
The wind continues with its wonders of sound
Pieces of old images forming its own pattern
Creating path of differences from one another like a maze with no end
For it was you who suddenly caught up in the tangle of my mind
I intend not to let it flown away by the humming of the wind
Though how hard it gets, how strong it blows, how cold it is
It stays

Ps: VB

TODAY

When its your name that is written in her heart,
it won't fade. Ever. 110310

SOME MEMORIES LIVE FOREVER

We were in the hallway. I saw the glimpse of him from far. My heart started to beat so fast. I can feel the rush of adrenaline flowing through my body. Flabbergasted!

I started to walk slowly towards him as my class was on the other side of the hallway. As I passed him, our gaze met each others'. Frisson. I continued walking. I felt nausea. It's like there were butterflies in my stomach.

The day went on as usual then. Normal. Nothing exciting happened. But, not until lunch time. I went straight to my locker as soon as the bell for lunch rang. There was something yellow that caught my eye when I reached my locker. It was small 'Post-it!'

" I like your eyes, I like your hair and I like you!"

Sincerely,
- DM -
(Damien Moore)

Oh my goodness! I swore to God I nearly passed out when I read those words. Suddenly, I felt a presence. I turned around there he was standing behind me with the most beautiful smile I ever seen.

" Anna, I've liked you for so long. I've been watching you and I think you feel the same way about me. Right? Please, be mine? " The words felt like a dream to me.

" What took you so long DM? I've liked you since forever! Of course I will say yes. I'm yours! " I managed to say that though only God knows how I felt at that time. I felt like crying of joy.

Like people say, the rest are history. Since that day, we would spend every single time together. He taught and showed me the meaning of love. He was always there for me and I will always be there for him. People would envy us when they see how awesome our relationships are going.

The day passed by and time flies. The Winter Prom was around the corner. Damien promised me that we will go together.

" I will take you to the prom and I'll make sure you are the most beautiful girl there. And for me, I'll be your Prince Charming ", he said to me one day when we were walking back from school. I felt like I'm living in a dream. How could I have gotten someone so perfect? I surely felt grateful to God for giving him to me as a boyfriend.

But I noticed something different about him that day. Even few days before that. He seemed so quiet and his look, it was just wrong. He was quite pale. I asked him a few times whether he was sick or did he do anything until he was so tired. But often he would just smile and say,

" How can I be sick and tired when I have the most beautiful girl on earth with me."

I don't know but I think God gave me an angel on earth to protect me and guide me. He was so nice.

The next day, I woke up quite late than usual so I rushed to school. I didn't have the time to call him first in the morning like we always did. I thought it was okay since I am sure I will see him in school.

When I reached school, he was not there. I was quite worried at that time. As soon as the bell rang for lunch time, I hurried out and I called him. To my surprise, his mum picked up the phone call. I knew there was something wrong. I just knew. I asked her where's Damien and she said that Damien has fever and he was sleeping. I told her mum that I'll come over when school finish but Aunt Lorna said its better for him to rest. She said that she'll ask him to call when he wakes up.

The Winter Prom is tomorrow. I am excited. I waited for him to call me back. Later that night, he called me.

" Anna, I'm sorry. I was asleep when you called me, honey. I'm sorry that I was not with you the whole day ", he said.

" It's okay, DM. It's not your fault, honey. You're sick. I can't wait to go to the prom with you tomorrow. Are you feeling better, love? " I asked him. I was worried about him.

" I'm okay, Don't worry, I promised you that I will take you to the prom and I will stick to my promise. See you tomorrow ", he said. I never thought that it will be our last phone call.

The next day, the day of the Winter Prom. I was so busy the whole day preparing for the prom night. I wore a green silk long with a halter top. It fitted me perfectly. Around 8 p.m, he came to pick me up at my house. My mum took our picture. He was amazing. He wore a tuxedo with a green shirt that matched my dress.

We went to the prom, it was one of the best night. We were having so much fun. But I noticed that he was very pale, I thought because he had fever a day ago. He looked so tired so I asked him to sit down with me for a while. We went and sat.

A few minutes after that, he asked.

" You are the most wonderful thing that happen in my life, Anna. If I'm not here with you anymore, promise me that you will move on ", he said. I was flabbergasted but I said I promise because I love him.

" Will you dance with me? "

And we went to the dance floor. It was a slow song and I was enjoying the moment. He hugged me. Suddenly he fell. I was so shocked. There were blood flowing out from his mouth and nose. But he kept on smiling. And those last word that I still hear until today, " I love you, Anna ". Then, silence. I cried so much for few months.

His mum told me that Damien had a genetic disease which can cause death since he was a child. He gave up on life till he met me. He was afraid to tell me. He loved me so much. Liked i promised him, I moved on for the sake of him.

That was 10 years ago. Now, I have a husband and a child I call, Damien. Well, I guess, some people stay in your memories forever. He was my first and my true love no matter what. He will always be in my heart and my soul. I love you too, Damien. Rest in peace!

by: Fatin Nur Fatehah